Can't hold on Forever..

You cant hang on to the past forever. You can't hang onto the what ifs.. You can hang on to everything and let it bring you down, or you can learn to forgive and move on.. Even though it will be one of the hardest things you'll have to do ,in the end it will be worth it. Hanging onto lost hopes is like getting sucked into a black hole of repeated darkness and depression. Place things in Gods hands and allow him to guide you into the light of your future and leave your dark past behind you. We only live once and If we let every little things hold us back from becoming everything that we can be then what are we living for? Live to please yourself before others. Place your faith in God and Let him guide you down the path he has chosen for you. Be all that you can be.  “If you want to forget something or someone, never hate it, or never hate him/her. Everything and everyone that you hate is engraved upon your heart; if you want to let go of something, if you want to forget, you cannot hate.” 
― C. JoyBell C.    #ThisCrazyWorldWeCallHome

Do you Trust Me?

Trust in a relationship is very important. It insures us that we don't have to worry about the other running around behind our backs. But for those of us who can't find the trust , there's nothing for us to do other then wait on the side line waiting for the other spouse to slip up and for the truth to come out. But that's just the thing you never know what will come to the surface, and when it does your left wondering what you did to cause the out come of they're action's. Life has a funny way of throwing things at us, weather we can handle it or not. You have to try your best to correct everything. Weather the best thing is leaving your spouse or trying to work out the mistake. Life is crazy. Life's like a box of chocolate's.... You Never Know What Your Going To Get...In this CRAZY world we call home..

Time for changes , im not who I was before.

It takes losing a close friend or relative to realize that we aren't invincible. We can not avoid our ending, but we can live our life's to the fullest while we can.  We only have once to live this life. And I can honestly say I haven't given my life up to this point my all. I've lied , cheated , lost those closest to me ,even been in trouble with the law. But I can say that all of that has made me a better person. I've bettered myself. I left the drug life behind me , I've stoped drinking as much. Now it's my time to live everyday like it's my last and make every second count.

Judgement

The amount of judgement people go through on a daily basis , is ridiculous . Jimi Hendrix once said " I'm the one that's got to die when it's my time to die, So let me live my life the way I want to" Why can't everyone take that advise and get over them self's? We can't help the way we are. We won't change to make everyone around us happy, there's no point. They don't have to live our life's. We only live once and if we have to change who we are then what's the point?? We we're BORN THIS WAY!! While I was at a Pride event this past weekend I witnessed a group of judgemental people telling us to repent, because we are sinning ... but if I remember correctly judging other's is also a sin. That show's that there view's on the Gay community over run's their knowledge of the Bible. I have screwed up more then once in my life so far and I regret every thing wrong that I've done. I will not judge those around me. I have no reason or need to. In this crazy world we call home..

Parents bullshit

Today is my Parent's 8th wedding annivesiry.. and even after the message's and call's I still haven't heard anything from my parent's for what is going on to be 2 month's. My family has slowly disowned me one by one until now I have no one. It's like I don't exsist to them or matter anymore... I can't understand how my own parent's have done this. It feel's so heartless. I don't and probably won't ever understand how a parent can ignore there own child. Just like I can't understand why a parent would beat there child for coming out like my mother did to me when I did. I know when I have children they won't ever have to encounter what I did as a child and what I still have to face. I wish my parents's would relize how broken I am with out them , how lost I am. Im 18 Years old and out in this crazy world not knowing anything. My parent's have wrote me off , refusing to guide me and I know they love me I just wish they showed it. I wish they talked to me. I hope they come around andwant me to be a part of they're live's agian .... I just hope it's not to late. I hope by that time I haven't given up all my hope's of them coming around agian.. CrazyWorldWeCallHome

Heartbreaker's

Heartbreak... do you know what its like to lose someone you were so close to... To have them vanish in the blink of an eye, knowing that there is no possible way to ever see them in person again. Or have your spouse just up and leave you after everything you've been through together. How about when your family disowns you because you aren't who they want you to be. There become's this huge empty feeling inside of us . This unknown feeling of why . There wont be an explanation of why. We will have to sit and suffer and continuously wonder why. The pain will become unbearable at time's and the thought's of ending everything or just simply "vanishing" in hope's that everyone will forget you will constantly linger in our head's. Maybe then the pain and heartbreak will be gone.. Weather it's a death of a loved one or the divorce because of a cheating bastard , or even being disowned by your family , or for some other screwed up reason heartbreak will always be a part of life . It can't be dodged . There are no warning's. We must simply face it when we come face to face with it and fight though every second of heartbreaking pain. Maybe someday we will be able to be somewhat back to our normal self''s... #ThisCrazyWorldWeCallHome </3

Relationship's Part 2

How would you rate your relationship? Would you say that everything is great, no disagreements? That everything is hunky dory? In reality everyone thinks that everything is perfect but its really not. There isn't a so called "Perfect Relationship". I say this because in order to make your relationship work and last there has to be the occasional disagreement. You have to be able to work through things, it brings you closer as a couple. But there are those disagreement's that either make or break your relationship. Life isn't promised tomorrow and we should give our relationship's our all and not risk losing everything. The same goes for if you feel the need to cheat on your spouse , instead of risking everything you have for that little fling with someone else , sit down and talk to you spouse about what you feel like your missing in your love life. Work thing's out don't throw it all away for a "fling" that isn't guaranteed to be better then what you've already got.