Parents bullshit

Today is my Parent's 8th wedding annivesiry.. and even after the message's and call's I still haven't heard anything from my parent's for what is going on to be 2 month's. My family has slowly disowned me one by one until now I have no one. It's like I don't exsist to them or matter anymore... I can't understand how my own parent's have done this. It feel's so heartless. I don't and probably won't ever understand how a parent can ignore there own child. Just like I can't understand why a parent would beat there child for coming out like my mother did to me when I did. I know when I have children they won't ever have to encounter what I did as a child and what I still have to face. I wish my parents's would relize how broken I am with out them , how lost I am. Im 18 Years old and out in this crazy world not knowing anything. My parent's have wrote me off , refusing to guide me and I know they love me I just wish they showed it. I wish they talked to me. I hope they come around andwant me to be a part of they're live's agian .... I just hope it's not to late. I hope by that time I haven't given up all my hope's of them coming around agian.. CrazyWorldWeCallHome